Remember yesterday – walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand – I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I wanna hear you say – I remember you …”
Yesterday was my oldest daughter’s Birthday. Her favorite gift? A phone call from Daddy that we weren’t expecting. I had been hoping all day, but didn’t hold my breath. What a relief when the phone rang. He talked to both girls, and I had him to myself for a few minutes. Too few if you ask me. I at least got to tell him a couple things I’d been waiting to say. And after payday this will get easier. His phone card will be recharged, he’ll have extra funds for the internet cafe.
I got my care pack from the USPS today. Two of them actually. This after they sent me a 3rd one yesterday…lol! Better late than never I guess. The customs forms are rather intimidating. I hate having to list this stuff. And Weight it? WTF? But whatever, he’s worth any effort. I’d walk through burning coals and broken glass to take care of him. I’m getting his goodies Thursday and shipping all of this stuff out on Friday. Along with a bunch of stuff he managed to forget.
I’ve decided, I’m not counting to the end of this deployment. I’m only looking as far forward as R&R. I’m not counting days, weeks, etc I’m counting paydays. That makes it seem less intimidating. Or maybe I’ll count care packages. I’ll be sending one every pay week. Maybe more if I see something he just has to have.
So here goes another dull Saturday, Maybe I’ll finally catch up on my housework.
Today has marked the one week mark since I said goodbye to my soldier, husband, best friend. It’s not been an easy week that’s for sure. While some troops get plenty of time to make calls, get online, etc, ours have been lucky to get that every 2 to 3 days. The last phone call I had was Tuesday night, and the last (and first) IM I had was Wednesday morning. I’ve mailed two letters in the last two days. I believe in taking full advantage of all communication options. And snail mail is a bit more dependable than email right now. I know he’ll get mail. And I know, with all those pockets he can carry pen and paper with him and write on the fly. I won’t let email make me lazy. I will however let the printer address my envelopes.
I haven’t had much ambition this week, not in the mood for web stuff I guess. I’m still in the adjustment period. I hope I get settled into this soon. I’m not exactly moping around the house, I’m just feeling kind of disconnected. That’s to be expected when the other half of yourself is shipped off to the other side of the world. He did reenlist over there, and we’re getting a nice bonus for that. That will solve alot of my dental problems. Which is a really good thing. And hopefully it will pay off some lingering old debt.
Payday is Thursday, I’m planning on catching up all the bills, shipping his laptop, recharging his phone card, and sending some goodies. I’m keeping those ideas to myself. That sounds stupid, I know but I told everyone back home that wanted to send him stuff my first ideas, and what were good standards and they already took them all. I want my packages to be special. Of course I’ll send him neccessities, and standard stuff too. I’ll be putting money in his acct as well for internet access. I just hope he gets to use it.
Well, that’s this weeks news. Have a great weekend.
My prayers were answered last night at 11pm. The phone rang, and it was my hunny on the other end of the line. We talked for about 45 minutes. It was so great to finally hear his voice again. I had a pretty bad couple of days, with him being gone and my face being so swollen. I can deal with mouth pain, or deployment, but for both to start at the same time was a tad much. Luckily I think the mouth is on the road to recovery. The swelling on the inside has gone now, it ruptured yesterday (ick). Now to just get rid of the knot on the outside. Anyhoo…
He reenlisted over there as planned. We’ll be getting a nice chunk of change in our checking account in the next few months. Guess who will be getting all of her dental problems solved! We decided against extending 3 more years. If we could do 1 year it would be ok. But we’ve been thinking alot about living in the lower 48 again, and how much we want to see there too. And how much easier travel would be from there. So I guess I better get my basement and garage taken care of this winter. PCS preparations begin. We’ve been back and forth on this so often. But I don’t want to miss out on other places, we can always try to get back up here later. Ft Carson sounds good to me. I’d love to explore Colorado. We’ll be needs of the army, so we just go on a wing and a prayer. At least I’ll have this year to save for the drive down, and to get my mouth fixed.
Hoping to see him on line this morning, he said he’d try…so fingers crossed!
Heard from hubby last night! He called around 10pm. he sounded good, excited and anxious to get started. I have to get him some $moola$ in his account so he can use the internet cafe. I also have to get him a decent calling card on pay day. His 1200 minute one only got him 105 useable minutes. Thank goodness the new yahoo messenger had calling ability. And it’s free. So that will be how we keep in touch once he gets his laptop. I’ll be sending it on the 1st. Right now I’m cleaning it out. I’ve upgraded his yahoo, added my new id, and cleaned up his startup menu and his temp/temp internet files. Right now it’s getting scanned by norton, then I’ll defrag it.
I’m doing good. I’ve only had one small meltdown with that coffee cup on the first day. I find it much easier to deal with this because I know he’s doing something he believes in. I miss him like crazy of course. He is after all my best friend in the world. We have such a blessed marriage. He’s more than my husband, lover and father of my children. The friendship we also share is the best part. I’m not sure when I began to accept this part of his job. The part where he goes off to foreign lands for months at a time. But I have. Maybe it’s because I’m so proud of him for what he’s chosen to do for his country and for us. Or maybe because I know how important it is to him. I’m sure there will be moments that I crumble. But for now, the most important priority I have is to remain strong for him. So he doesn’t worry about me while he’s there.
My jaw is still swollen and sore, hopefully the antibiotics kick in soon and start reducing it. The ibuprofen helps during the day. The stronger stuff I try to avoid until right before bed time. It makes me kind of shakey, and I don’t care for it. And I need to be fully alert during the day for the kids.