I have no temper tantrums today. Well, I do, but there the same ones I ave every day, so not really worth repeating. Instead I have random thoughts. Some things that have only just started to make sense to me.
1. Why on earth do I miss him so much more this time? I’ve been asking myself that daily and only just figured it out. I "saw" him almost every day the last time. We had almost daily time together on webcam and instant messenger. Big fat Duh to me eh?
2. I was reading an article about PTSD, and how less soldiers see it as a weakness to get help than they used to. And that’s good of course. And it dawned on me, anyone with an issue relating to depression, anxiety, etc can feel that way. I’m guilty of it myself. My grandmother was bipolar, and had anxiety. I have the symptoms, but hate the thought of needing medication to be "me". But then I realize I’m tired of "me" being buried for these long periods of time under this layer of…monotone I guess. Think Eeyore. Remember how he always sounded unenthused about everything? That’s me all to often. And it doesn’t matter if hubby is deployed or not. The fact is, it takes a huge amount of guts to make that appointment.
3. When the Sound of Music comes on tv…I can’t not watch it. Why???
4. I finally signed up for Netflix. Their selection doesn’t impress me.
5. I am getting cable in my bedroom. As soon as I can afford a small TV too.
#3 – because the hills are alive, and will eat you if you do not keep an eye on them.
#4 – <3 Netflix
That MUST be it, there’s no other explanation!